easy but creative and yummy

First a quick update.  I finished my 5 days of birth control. Now I play the waiting game till Friday when I go in for my baseline appointment.  They will take blood and do an internal ultrasound.  Then that night I will start my first day of my stim injection (225mg of Follistim), then the party really gets started. 

On a previous post I said I was going to start doing some crafts and baking.  Well I didn't do anything to difficult, but I want to share what I did any way.
First I made a pillow for my beagle.  He always steels mine so I figured I would sew 1 just for him.  My sewing machine broke so it was sewn 100% by hand.

Next Up I was craving sweets so I decided to make chocolate covered pretzels.  They where so easy to make.  All I did was melt the chocolate in the microwave and dipped and drizled the pretzels.  Mmmm so good!

Oh yeah I dipped some strawberries while I was at it too. Now i'm off to make a nice hot cup of tea and eat some sweet treats.

appt went well.

Mondays doctors appt went well.  I went in the morning for blood work to see if my estrogen was low enough, so I can just start birth control.  Rather than waiting for AF.  Well good news, no AF but I was able to start taking My BC pills.  YIPPY!  Yippy except the fact that I've been off BC for so long that I forgot how sick it makes me.  O Well I only have to be on it for 5 days.  I think after everything I've been through and will go through 5 days of bc is like nothing.
Now (other than BC) I'm just waiting for April 1st so I can go in for my Baseline appt.  They will do Blood work and a ultrasound and then I will start my Stim injections that day.
On a totally unrelated note I think I am going to start doing 1 craft or baked good a week (maybe more)  and sharing it with you ladies.  I love doing crafts and cooking but I've been so consumed with all of this baby making stuff that I haven't done anything in quite a long time.   I think sharing it with everyone would be a good way for me to get back into it.  And maybe it will be a good distraction for me in the next few weeks.

happy and sad

Today I went to a baby shower for a friend.  She also delt with infertility for a few years.  I'm so happy for her.  She and her husband are wonderful and deserving people.  Well today I'm so sad for myself.  I just want a baby so bad.  I know it's going to happen (when it's supposed to).  Just seeing all those baby things and all the other pregnant women there reminds me of how much I want to be one of them. 
I'm also sad because I've been waiting to start AF so that I can start my IVF meds, well my RE told me I needed to start by Monday the 21st (hmm tomorrow).  It's almost Monday the 21st and no sign of AF.  We are going to go in for blood work and to talk to the doctor in the morning to see what we do next and if we are still on track for the April IVF.    My fingers are crossed that I will still be able to do everything on time.  My husband compares it to a kid waiting for Christmas morning, if you tell then Christmas is delayed they would be devastated.
I just have to stay positive and know that everything is going to happens when it's supposed to.  Destiny!

Meds = )

Well here it is!  I finally have all of my IVF medication.  It's so crazy to think that it's almost here.  I should start stim meds at the end of next week.  I'm still waiting for AF so I'm not 100% sure of what day I start.  But it's closer than it's ever been.  

Open Book

My whole life I've been very open about my life and experiences.  Being so open is my way of letting out the stress.  I couldn't imagine keeping all of these things about IF to myself, I would blow up.    I was telling someone at work that I will be off for a week in April, and when they asked why I would be out I began to tell them in unnecessary detail about my upcoming IVF.  Like people at work need to know that as soon as AF shows up I'll begin birth control and then begin injections....  I forget that not everyone needs to here about this stuff.
Now my husband on the other hand is completely opposite of me.  He would rather keep everything in and tell no one.  fingers crossed our IVF works he thinks we should not tell anyone for the first trimester.  I don't even think I'll be about to keep it in for even a day.  After almost 4 years of trying once I get my first positive I'm pretty sure I will be glowing and not be able to hide anything.


And for my progress... right now I'm taking a medication called Provera to jump start me AF (aunt flow). Once AF starts I will start BC pills.  I never thought in my whole life (or in my life dealing with IF) that I would want AF to start and that I would be happy about taking BC pills.  Then around the last week of March I will start the Injections.  It's starting to feel so real.  In only about a month and a half I will be prego. I can't wait!

just waiting

Today I went to the doctor to sign all the consent papers for our ivf and get all the pre BW in order.  As of right now I am just waiting to Start lovely Aunt flo and then I will be put on birth control to regulate my cycle and then I just wait till I get the go ahead to start my stim meds.  The time is coming for us to have or baby we have wanted so bad for so long.  Its weird but If there is one thing I know in life, it is that IVF is the journey I am suposed to be on.  I know it is going to work I just know. 

Good bye coffee, you will be missed.

Last month I gave myself a deadline to quit drinking coffee/caffeine.  Well that day has sadly come.   Today will be my first day without it, and I really hope I can make it.  It's probably not the best day to give it up seeing as I have to work 5pm-1:30am.  I hope I don't but I'm already predicting that today isn't going to be that successful.

Wish me luck!