crewel joke?

So a few days ago a good friend of mine (who I don't see as often as I should) came into my work.  She had "good news" to tell me.   She gets a HUGE smile on her face (bigger than I've ever seen) and tells me " I'm Pregnant". 
Well a little back story before I go on with the rest of the story... I've known her for 10 years, and even though I love her deeply and will always be there for her,  a lot of things she says are very hard to believe.  Even though I usually give her the benefit of the doubt (i think that's how the saying goes).  oh and she has a 5 year old that was an opps baby.  And even though she makes it though and her daughter has everything she want, she knows another child would make it much harder.
Ok back to the part about her telly me she prego.  So I try to muster up a smile and give her a hug.  She knows I'm not very happy about her news.  I quietly say how I wish I could be happier for her and I just don't understand why things like this happen to people who don't want it to and not for the people like me who yearn for it.
So the next bomb drop... She says "but wait, I want you to adopt it".  Ok that's wonderful and I would adopt her "baby" in a heart beat.  And she knows that.  For the rest of the day she sends me a few texts saying things like I hope you are serious about adopting and how she loves me.  Meanwhile I tell my hubby and his response is "I'll believe it when i see it, don't get your hopes up". 
So not even 24hrs later she texts me and says "I got my period"  I reply I'm so sorry and then I haven't heard from her since.  I mean was she serious or was it a sick joke? I just don't know why she would joke about that with me.

On a different note... I go Tuesday to talk to my doctor to see what he says about my resent failed IVF.  I really hope he has some answers for me.  And I hope I can talk my hubby into doing another cycle soon.  I guess (like always) I just have to wait and see.

sorry for the delay.

I'm so sorry to everyone for my absence.  I'm also upset with myself because my blog was supposed to be a new exciting thing for me.  I was wanted to post and keep up no matter what happened.  Even though I am feeling better about things, It's still been really hard for me to even think about sharing my life (and nothing to exciting has been happening).   
I've always felt it was part of my IF journey to share my struggles.  I was always explaining to people what I was going though and and all the details involved.   Ever since my failed IVF I have had a complete 180, I now don't even want my best friend or my mother knowing that we are secretly taking clomid and filling up on fertility vitamins.  I'm just telling everyone (trying to convince my self) that we aren't really trying any more... more like we are just "whatevering" it. 
I'm still open to do another IVF if it's in the budget... but I really hope if we are able to do another cycle I will be able to keep it to myself.  I'm such an open book person, I just know its will be hard. 
I'm about 6 days from my next cycle, and even though i'm fairly sure this month was a wash, I can't help but hope for a miracle.  I guess all I can do is wait and see.

feeling a bit better.

Hi everyone! I just wanted to check in and let everyone know I'm doing a lot better.  It took me till today (1 week) before I could call my RE back and schedule a follow up appt with the doc.  But I did and on May 31st hopefully I will have some answers to what may have went wrong with my cycle and maybe even figure out where we go from here.
I was so tore up inside when I found out it didn't work, but now I'm trying to look to the future with positive thoughts.  Even though I know our chances at conceiving naturally are kinda low, I still have hopes that it could happen (I hope it does). And if it doesn't I hope I can do another IVF cycle very soon.  My DH doesn't think it's a good idea to rush into it... he wants to wait a year (WHAT!!) I can not wait that long.  So hopefully when we go to talk to the doctor at the end of the month he will help my DH to think that doing it again and soon would be the right decision.