7 weeks today

Today Marks me being 7 weeks pregnant... I still can't believe i can really write that. Makes me the happiest person in the world. 
My pregnancy has been pretty uneventful, and other than being super tiered and a little bloated i feel great.  For the last few days I've been getting some nagging headaches and also some off and on tummy issues.  But nothing i can't handle.  My mom and my sister keep telling me they had easy pregnancies,   but they have never carried multiples so i think it will be more likely that I'll be a little sicker than if i was having one.
I wasn't feeling to up to taking a picture today (and I don't look much different from the last pic) so i'll save the picture taking for my 8 week update.  And again I'm so exited for my June 4th appt where We will get to see the babies heartbeats.

I have one other issue i have to address, and any feedback would be greatly appreciate.  So my hubby and I haven't umm done the deed since we found out i was expecting.  I love him and want to show him that but I'm just so worried that anything i do will harm the babies. I'm just so freaked out about losing these babies.  And then there's the fact that i feel bloated and not so attractive right now.  I know he probably thinks I'm beautiful no matter what.

I'm not used to the lack of control

During my many years of infertility I've always (for the most part) been in control.  That's not to say I've always ended up with the result i wanted, but none the less i was in control.  When we started TTC I was in control of the dates we baby danced, and the days i POAS, and everything in between... When we did fertility treatment, every moment was accounted for, and that helped make me feel comfortable with where we where at with everything.    Even at the start of this pregnancy I was in control.  I took a pregnancy test every morning just to make sure the line was getting darker.  I kid you not i took at least 30 tests, but it made me feel better to know if the line was getting darker things where going to be ok.  I told myself after our first ultrasound i would stop POAS.  But that is proving to be difficult.  I haven't taken any tests since last Thursday (day of our ultrasound)  But it makes me really sad that i don't have my own personal ultrasound machine to keep check on the twins. 
I know that the twins are happy and growing fine, and I'll be ok.  I'll just be a bit more relieved on June 4th when we can see the babies again, and hear there heartbeats for the first time. <3  And I'll be even more relived in July when i end my first trimester.

OMG, I don't even know what to title this post = ) but it's good i promis.

For the last few months I've had no idea what to post.  We haven't been doing any fertility treatment, we've been just laying low living life as normal.  And now i have to say for the last few weeks I've had to try really hard to not share my life and write a post.(
I'm going to cut right to the chase, this last cycle things just felt right.  We tracked ovulation, I ate healthy, worked out a lot, and just tried to take care of my body the best i could.  Well two weeks ago today I took my first pregnancy test (of this cycle).  and BAM all the time i've spent as a patiently waiting member of the infertility club has paid off... 2 pink lines.  Yaaayyy!!!

Well I continued to be POS Obsessed that whole weekend (with lines getting darker and darker each time) and on Monday I called my doctor and went in for my first beta.  My results came back the next day with a beta of 148 (yay again) and a whopping progesterone level of 89 (nurse wanted to see it over 20).  So officially prego.  After almost 5 years of TTC I'm really pregnant and this time everything looks good. 
My follow up beta two days later was good as well, it came back at 284 so again looks good.

But wait I have more to my story.......  I went in yesterday for my first appt with the doctor to confirm my pregnancy with a ultrasound.  I had to work that morning but a co-worker came in for an hour to let me go to my appt (the whole time no one at work knowing that I'm prego, actually we haven't told anyone yet).  I met my husband at the doctors office and we wait, me totally nervous.  We've never made it this far in our fertility journey, and i just want to see something inside my uterus to confirm this is all real and to make sure our sticky baby is sticky in the right place.
We'll after what seemed like hours of waiting, we where finally looking at the ultrasound screen anticipating what we where gonna see....  Well i'll show a picture and everyone else can be the judge of my ultrasound picture....

Now if you are looking at this picture and think you might be seeing double.... Its because there are two gestational sacs... Yeah I said it TWO sacs, OMG I'm having TWINS.  How does this happen?  Well never mind i know how it happened, but really after 5 years, 3 failed IUI's, a failed IVF, and a Miscarriage last summer... This is really it, it feels right this time. 

So to recap I'm 6 weeks pregnant today, and the babies are due to join this word January 11, 2013.  And We get to see our little miracles again in two weeks on June 4th, and hopefully we will get to see the heartbeats.
I really want to track every step of my journey with lots of pictures.
Here is my belly at 5 weeks... i'm sure it is going to change quickly with two munchkins fighting for space = )

Till next time <3 Rachel